ahhhhh someone slap me!!! shucks la. im feeling so damn damn damn guilty now!! how could i ever speak without thinking!! really damn apologetic towards my cute fishball junior!! imagine people tell me the same thing after a performance, i think i would cry!! haiz~ how could i do that!? SLAP ME!!!

that aside, since you have decided to let things stay the way they are now, i've decided to do the same. im not gonna waste precious time thinking bout it every night, guessing your thoughts and getting upset when im reminded of the wonderful memories we once had. i really really don't know what more i can do to salvage the situation.. but i really must admit i was super sad that night.

so im sorta glad guiltiness has overtaken my sadness. ha, which is not exactly a good thing.

i love you, junior!! and juniors!! (: